....suddenly felt like blogging.. i know this blog has been dead for so long and i didnt even bother. but anw.. who cares.. its after all only a place for me to.. trash things out? haha whatever.. right now, im really stressed. everyone is mugging.. like crazy, and somehow i think im slacking. went to the lib today.. guess what, we saw at least one person from each class today.. haha.. ppl from e1, e2(nic and alex), e3, e5(that's me), e6, and e7! this is madness.. i thought everyone is slacking..totally madness man..

haiz.. actually, another thing that im really upset abt,, is that my parents did not wait for me to get home before going out for dinner.. 1) i asked them to come pick me up.. they said it's better if i come home myself, and they'll wait for me. 2) my phone batt was flat, that's why its inconvenient if they wanna contact me as the journey home is damn long....( but fine! since they refused, i took a bus home myself.. ) when i reached home.. no one was at home alr.. though my dad wanted to come home and pick me.. its damn irritating can.. i know its quite childish to be angry over such things but they even scolded me. i felt as if im not impt at all.. cant you just wait? whatever la.. they do not care abt how i feel at all..

and im really pissed at some ppl.. doesnt mean you are smarter, and get higher marks for your tests, you can go ard 'suaning' ppl. i know you might not mean it, and might be joking ard.. but to ppl like me.. i mind okay. pls think before you comment on ppl. i really hate it when for example, before a test.. you come to me and say "sure fail alr la", "dont need to study alr la",and stuff like that. okay.. i USED TO not mind... but NOW, i do.. coz im really damn stressed now and you are adding on to it.. if you cannot at least encourage, then dont say anything alright.

sometimes i wonder if i really have to stay up everyday in order to somehow 'secure' marks.. for chemistry test on speed of reaction, energy change and QA, i studied till like 3 plus.. and got 19.5. the next test, i didnt burn midnight oil.. and i failed.. then the third test.. i really tried to burn midnight oil again.. but this time until 2 plus.. in the end i got 12.5 which was barely a pass.. i really HATE to burn midnight oil.. but sometimes, i really do not have a choice... plus the fact that if you are in xxx's class... you gotta really work extra hard. does that mean that if i wanna do well in irritating subjects like phy and chem, i HAVE to burn midnight oil? or maybe not slp at all? this is total madness.. then the next day i'll be like damn restless and lethargic, and might even be late for sch coz i cant make myself wake up on time? ... im just not the kind who can do science in the future... haiz.. at least for chemistry.. im able to pass if i burn midnight oil.. but i think phy tests are totally madness man.. no matter how hard i try.. i wont be able to do well. im a total failure in sciences.. this time, im really gonna give in my best for phy.. if i do fail yet again, im really gonna be damn demoralised..

stressed...